03 September 2011
Baby. Baby. Baby?
Remember this photo?
I can not believe that it was almost exactly a year ago that I wrote this post about how desperately I wanted to be pregnant again.
I can not believe that it's been 8 months since Grace died and I am still not pregnant.
I can not believe that we have spent the last 2 1/2 years trying to have another baby. Falling pregnant and losing the baby. Again and again.
I can not believe that the gap between Sophie and her little brother or sister will be at least 4 1/2 years.
I can not believe that my only hope of having another baby is to have a stitch put in my cervix (which has a 10% chance of miscarriage) and spend the entire pregnancy on bed-rest.
I can not believe that almost every single friend I have has either fallen pregnant or given birth in the last 8 months.
I can not believe how unfair it feels.
I can not believe how much it hurts.