I often wonder why no one told me that motherhood was so tough. My mum raised 7 kids. She had 3 kids by the time she was 22 and she never once told me that being a mum can be challenging at the best of times.
Now, meeting Tom and becoming a mother and wife has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I honestly feel like I was walking around without a clue, without a point to my life, before I met Tom and had Sophie. I know it sounds like the worst cliche ever, but it was like there was a piece of me missing that was only filled by becoming a family. Seriously, I know how wanky that sounds, but that is really how it feels. If anyone reading this knew how much my life has turned around in the last few years they would understand. Every day I get closer to becoming the person that I always dreamed of being.
But, at the same time, motherhood has been the most difficult thing I have ever done. It has pushed me further than I ever thought I could go physically, mentally and emotionally. Sometimes I think that it's because I met Tom, had Sophie and got married all in the same year. Maybe it's because I am about 10 years younger than the average mother or maybe it's because I am just not as naturally good at mothering than other people.. I don't know.
But, you know, Tom and I still plan on having 3 or 4 kids.. Because even on the hardest of days, it is impossible to imagine life without the joy and love and happiness having a little one brings to your life. No matter how hard the day has been, I can still creep into her room at night and feel my eyes well up just holding her little hand in mine and thinking about how happy she makes us.
How hearing her little footsteps run up the corridor every morning and jump on the bed, talking at a million miles an hour about some random event that happened weeks ago, giving us big sloppy kisses and demanding 4 different kinds of breakfast is the best thing in the universe and I would not change it for the world.
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That is just beautiful Katie! It is definitely the most hardest job in the world but the most rewarding. I've got a big milestone birthday coming up soon and I was like WOAH, I am married with two kids and barely any of my friends and family are married or close to having kids. That has probably been the hardest thing for me to deal with as it isn't the "norm" now to have kids before 30 .. or have them close together or have more than 1!
So here's to us mothers! We rock! haha
xo MODELmumma
All my friends with kids say the same thing: why didn't anyone tell me what it would be like? I think you still don't truly understand until you're there (and has nothing to do with age). I find being a parent just amplifies the high and lows in life - I've never been so happy as watching my kids, but never felt so despairing, tired, frustrated, angry, lost, useless (and the list goes on...). The joys definitely outweigh the low times though. It's nice to know your not alone on this rollercoaster.
It sure is a rollercoaster...but we wouldn't change it for the world. Lap up every minute of it. Even the bad ones teach us something and help us grow. I can so relate to your words. What on earth was I doing before I became a Mumma...my calling in life. Steph :) x x
P.s. your Sophie is a gorgeous little fairy :)
Amen to that xx
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