Lost in a pile of laundry

This photo was taken on Sophie's first day of school way back in February and it's a good indication of how things are in my life that I'm only just posting it now.. In July!

I have so much to tell you all that I don't even know where to start! Henry is 10 months old now. I have no idea how that happened so quickly! Life is good but very busy. Days are spend just barely keeping on top of the cooking, cleaning and laundry that I'm left wondering how on earth anyone with kids manages to do anything else. Even after the kids are in bed I do the dishes, fold the washing, tidy up a bit and collapse into bed with my 'to-do' list growing ever longer by the day.

Henry is doing so well. He is such a happy, sweet boy. My only complaint is that (just like Sophie) he is a terrible sleeper. At 10 months old he is still waking up 4-5 times a night! I can count on one hand the number of times I have slept through the night in the last year.. To say I'm exhausted is an understatement!

I promise I'll post some photos soon x

M.I.A

When you start getting messages from people you don't know asking if you are okay it's probably time to write a post.

Life has just been so busy and I find myself wondering how anyone with kids (especially a baby) finds the time to blog at all.

I barely have time to sit down at all these days.. managing to shower and make dinner is cause for celebration at the moment and once the kids are in bed I am lucky if I can even find the energy to brush my teeth!

I have considered giving up on blogging altogether.. there are so many people who are so much better at it than me and I sometimes wonder if it's a waste of my time.. Maybe I would be better off using my time to sit down with a cup of tea and a good book at the end of the day rather than staring at the computer.
(Although I have to admit that this is the first time I have used the computer in weeks, months even!)

Henry is doing so well.. he is just such a sweet little boy but has currently decided that sleeping is not his thing. Yeah, that sucks. Sophie is just loving being a full time school girl and we are slowly getting into the whole school routine.

I'll leave you with a picture of those two little possums that I took today.

I can't believe I'm still awake!

Soundtrack of the month..

The hole in my heart.

It was 2 years ago today that our darling little Grace was stillborn.

I don't know what to say.
It's 2 years of my life that have been filled with so much sadness, and heartbreak and grief. So much longing and so much pain.

She was such a beautiful little baby and I wish more than anything in the world that we got to see her grow up.

4/52

I have finally got around to posting a photo of my kids for 4/52.
(For those who don't follow Jodi's wonderful blog it's where you post a picture of your kids once a week for a year.)

It's such a brilliant idea and it will be so nice to look back over the photos at the end of the year and see just how much they have grown.


'4/52: Future photographer?'

Thirty

Today is my 30th birthday. The big 3.0.
I'm pretty excited about my 30's.. I think its going to be an awesome decade!

Five!

My (not so) little girl turned 5 two days after Christmas. I can not believe that we have a FIVE year old! It seems like it was only yesterday that she was toddling around in a nappy and now she is about to start full time school!

I wish that I could rewind a few years and re-live her 3rd and 4th year all over again. I often worry that I spent that whole time so depressed after losing Grace and then so consumed with trying to fall pregnant again that I was not really the best mother during those years. I was so focused on what I had lost and what I didn't have that I forgot to enjoy the things I did have.. like my beautiful little girl.

Luckily, she has still managed to grow into a gorgeous little girl and even though she has given us a run for our money since Henry was born we still feel so lucky to have her every single day!

Happy birthday my darling girl.. I hope being five is loads of fun! Xx

Merry Christmas!

Hope you all had a fantastic day x